I sat late in office that day. It was partly work, partly melancholy. Didn't have a clue of how I got into either of those. But whenever I stay late, I kinda slow down. The mind seems to be at ease. There is no pressure. And I kinda become nostalgic.
I felt like doing some introspection. I felt like looking back at the past 4/5 years, which arguably has been the most significant part of my life so far. So I opened up my blog archive and started reading chronologically. Blogging has been one of the best things I've done in the past few years!
The memories just flooded by. It was like traveling time and 'watching' them from the sidelines. The moments of joy, friendship, courage, frustration, love, loss, success, failures. They gave me goose-bumps. I was able to understand and find answers for some things. But there were some things which I failed to find answers for, even now.
A lot of things have changed and a lot haven't. A lot of people have come and gone. A few important ones have stayed. A lot of dreams have been shattered. A few of them have been realized. A lot of wrongs. A few rights. A lot of happiness. A few tears.
When I look back at all of it now, I wish a lot of things had turned out differently. Maybe given a chance to relive those moments, I would do things differently. I would take more risks. I would believe in myself more. I would be braver. I would express more. I would care more.
But then maybe I would just choose to relive it the same way.
