Saturday, July 28, 2007

Older

I believe there are two days in a year in everyone's life, that kinda puts them on the backfoot in retrospection. One is of course the day which ends the year and the other is the day you turn a year older (and wiser, I would say), yeah, you guessed it right, its your birthday.

Most of my friends would agree with what I would say that “its just another day”. Well, to most part, it is indeed true although my friends of the fairer sex might disagree !

Well, I, for one, on this day would think about the number (age) and do a reality check on where I stand and where do I see myself going by the time the number would become +1 or +2. I look at how much I have grown with respect to my attitude towards life. And somehow quite indifferently, I find a lot of changes, form year to year. It feels good.
Sometimes there is a tendency to compare ourselves with our peers. This might frighten you! It frightens me! But then, its imperative that you think about your life, in isolation.

Another thing I generally do is to look at the changes that have happened with respect to people around me in contrast with the years of the past. I tend to remember the past (glory days!) and look at how I had celebrated. And I see that 10 yrs ago, I would try to make it a very special day, and now its the people around me who make it a special day. They make you feel its your day. Looking back, it brings a lot of joy, remembering the wonderful people who were around and at the same time inflicts a lot of pain that they are not there anymore. But there is a certain sense of joy in the pain too.

Lost amidst such thoughts, the day folds.